We are moving!!

Early this week, I was sitting at my dads house and I got this over whelming feeling that it was time to move. I called Seth and he supported that decision. I was supposed to stay at my inlaws while Seth was deployed but after a year, I decided that I needed my own space. I need to be able to clean the way I want, cook the way I want, and the most important...BABY PROOF! When you live in someone elses house you cant really baby proof cause its not your place. So after that strong feeling, I knew it was time! So the next day, I made up a budget and figured out what we could afford and went apartment hunting. There were two places I like but one was out of my price range. But after an email from the manager, she told me that the prices were wrong and I really could afford it! Its a perfect 2-bedroom, 1 1/2 bath. Its a good size and perfect for our little family. Rent is reasonable, water is a flat fee, the utilities are lower than other places I was looking at. I can have my apartment and still pay off all of our debt. That im excited about. So on the 1st, we get to move in! I am so excited! I cant remember the last time I was this excited. I feel like a weight has been lifted off my chest. I know this is the right decision. Im close to school(for when I start going back), minutes away from shopping(its not a 20 minute trip anymore and the best part, its only 30 minutes from the hospital( right now i travelling an hour). I cant wait to move and I am so excited to raise my family in my own place:)

Once we are moved in...ill post pictures:)

Deployment

So as some of you know, Seth has been deployed. This deployment is for a maximum of 400 days but with the Army you never really know. Seth has been gone for 8 days and I dont really know how im reacting to it yet. Right now he is only in Texas and I get to talk to him and/or skype him everyday. I havent had to really be away from him yet. Ill admit the night he left I got pretty emotional. Just knowing how long we are going to be apart is hard. I think once he is in Afghanistan and I cant talk to him everyday, that I will have a harder time with him being gone. One thing that brings me some comfort is knowing that I get to see him twice during the time he will be gone. 1st, he gets to come home when the baby is born. Since he is only in Texas they are allowing him to come home, which is a huge blessing. 2nd, he gets his 2 week R&R( rest and relax) somewhere in the middle of this deployment. We dont know when it will be but knowing it is coming makes me feel better. So far ive been ok with him being gone. With him working graves and late shifts for the sheriffs department I am used to sleeping alone so I didnt have to adjust to him not being next to me. I think that is the hardest for most people. During the day I have been keeping myself busy and doing things I wouldnt normally do (like clean the fish tank...yuck!).

Kadence and soon Summer as well, has been a huge blessing in all this. I dont know what I would do without the distraction of kids. Kadence has so many needs and the new baby will need even more. I am never bored. I am way excited for Summer to get here...then I get to see my husband for a few days:)

Summer Baby

So at my last appointment, my stomach measured smaller than it should. This worried my doctor so he ordered me another ultrasound and has me coming in 1-2 times a week to get monitored. With all the monitoring everything had turned out good. Summers heart rate is good and there is nothing wrong. With the ultrasound though, her abdomon is measuring small. Everything else is measuring right where it should be. Just her belly is small. My dr. said its not serious but he wants to keep an eye on her. He worried because her middle is small, that she wont handle labor well. He told me that a VBAC may not be a good idea. In 3 weeks I have another ultrasound to measure her again. My Dr. said after that ultrasound he will know for sure what will be the safest kind of delivery. Im hoping she grows. I cant have another c-section. Seth is gone and I have a toddler to take care of. How do I take care of her when I cant pick her up or play with her? I know I have family and help but I hate being dependent on people. Plus no one is home during the day so either way I have to do it by myself. I just want to be able to take care of my family. I pray everyday I wont have another c-section. Plus to stay a week in the hospital...no thank you! Kadence is at my side at all times and no one will be watching her over night. Personally I feel like everything is going to be ok. When I think about having the birth that I want(VBAC), i have a sense of peace come over me. Thats makes me feel like I will get what I want. I know God always provides a way. Heres to hoping that the way is a natural delivery and a short hospital stay:)